My birthday celebrations last year, which were well planned and thought out, seem both so long ago and also so sharp in my memory. It’s hard to imagine that now, it’s been a whole other year. What I anticipated to be my most formative or perhaps most vital year - the time of my life when I was 30 - was pretty spot on.
As always, I’ve found myself in a dichotomy of thoughts about this year of my life. On the one hand, it’s what I had planned and what I had hoped for. I continued to grow my business; along with my life and work partner. I matured in my relationships both professional and personal. I invested in some key fashion pieces (a lot of Gucci apparently but we let it have its moment). I travelled a ton and chased key experiences. So yeah, a lot of what I expected from myself I got.
But also, this year has lead to more questions about what I want my life to look like. Where do we want to live? How do we want to live? What holds value? What is more important - the new BALENCIAGA sneakers or a trip to Thailand? Why can’t we have both? How can we have both? So as much as I feel accomplished and that my goals are met, I just as honestly and frankly have no concrete answers to these important questions.
But you know what the most refreshing thing of it all is? That turning 30 has somehow made me be completely okay with it. Not having the answers or a solid life plan is something that doesn’t scare me. It weirdly excites me. It leaves me open to all possibilities. Ready to embrace whatever might come.
On another note, we will be travelling from Bali to the Philippines to celebrate my birthday, and that excites me on a whole other note! Can’t wait to finally be in this country of a thousand islands where so many of my closest friends are from.
Blazer, Shirt, Pants: CHRISTOPHER BATES
Sneakers: SKECHERS
Belt Bag: ZALANDO
Have you been to the Philippines? Would you want to go?
